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All my life, I've tried very hard to be considerate to other people's feelings. I try very hard to treat others the way I want them to treat me. This should be distinguished from me wanting to please others before myself. This is about being CONSIDERATE towards the feelings of others (in this case, ME).

Perhaps I've allowed others to step all over me and yes, that would make it my fault for allowing it to happen in the first place. This has to stop.

I'm tired of putting everyone's feelings on a golden pillow over and above my own bronze one and I just want to not care just for a while. Perhaps I'm a goody-two-frickin'-shoes who doesn't want unnecessary conflicts but I guess this very nature of mine has allowed the situation to take its toll on me.

Enough.

I want this to stop. I would like people to be considerate to MY FEELINGS for a change. Everyone seem to have become very comfortable unloading their emotional baggages on me. Hello, I have my own problems as well.

While we're on the subject of me wanting to be selfish, please DO NOT take me for granted. I may not scream my displeasures into your already failing eardrums but do have the decency to be NICE AND CONSIDERATE and fucking RECIPROCATE! Ever heard of 'one good deed deserves another?' No? Well, learn it now and learn it well.