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The Dancing Lights (Pt II) Issue

*yawn* *stretch*

ahh just finished watching malaysian idol. this week's group was awesome! the second group definitely cannot compare with this week's. i'm definitely going to vote for jaclyn, saiful and mimie. least to say, jaclyn was the best of all 3 groups and i seriously think she has potential to be the next malaysian idol. my biggest fear is, malaysians wont vote for her cos she's different and not the typical type of singer that we find in malaysia. we'll just have to see the results this sunday at 10pm.

today was a pretty cloudy day with not much sun. cooling actually. woke up early to go for breakfast with xavie and stephanie. hell, we yam char-ed the ENTIRE day from 12pm till 5pm.. well not exactly a whole day but heck, its 5 hours of drinking and yakking. steph's one cool chick - and a hot one too *wink*

talked about anything and everything, basically.. from our stupid encounters with old, ugly and perverted men to religion. i'd say it was a cool session.. we had to switch place once cos ppl wanted to sit at our table at the previous coffee shop haha! overall, i had loads of fun. looking forward to it again.

again, i've over used my camera and been taking light movements in a frenzy. here are some examples of what i did. yes, boredom struck and yes, i have nothing else better to do. but heck, these pics make damn awesome wallpapers. if you like any of them, leave ur email either on my tag board or in my comments link. let me know which pic and i'll send them to you if i have the time. here are some examples:



now thats done, i'm gonna go wait for shai. we're gonna watch I, Robot tonight wheee!

The Harry Potter Dream Issue

man, i've got a freaking malaysian studies exam today and i'm still awake hehehe (its 1:20am). plus, i'm still in my semester break mood. talk about a way to bust your holidays *grumble grumble*. oh i posted a new poem. do take the time to read it and my other poems too. i'd like to know your opinions.

OOOHH.. i had a weird dream again (oh no!). but this time, its weird, funny and kinda "exciting". well.. the dream's pretty vague so i'm just gonna give you the minimal descrition of my dream. the funny thing about the dream was that, i dreamt i was a student in hogwart's school of magic.. HAHAHAHA. yeah.. one of harry potter's friends bwahahhaah.. pretty funny and cool at the same time.. i remember i was walking along the street and came across a shop (those vcd sorta stalls) and the seller was selling wands.. kinda like the shop where harry goes and sees the brooms for sale etc.. so, back to my dream, i remembered thinking of which wand to buy.. the metal one or the wooden one.. the guy goes on to explain that the wooden ones are cheaper and easier to use (like, wow!). so, i decided to get the wooden one.. besides, the metal ones look like our metal rulers *rolls eyes*.. like, hello? the wooden ones looked, like, more magical? so not fetch! (thanks, kev.. its stuck with me,.. damn you!)

so yeah, thats the funny part.. the creepy part of it was a beast of some sort was loose and i had to save the innocent lives of others. the weird thing was, the school wasnt some big old castle.. it was in a modernized setting.. much like our office buildings.. yup, we had elevators in my dream.. so i remember someone saying that the beast was gonna go to the 5th floor to eat the people. then, i rush as fast as i could to save the weaklings hahaha!.. too bad i couldnt reach the ppl on the 5th floor and the beast ate them all.. sad, really.

thats pretty much my dream.. oh and i do remember saying an incantation in my dream.. you know, the one hermione said in harry potter and the sorcerer's stone.. the levitation spell. erm.. something laviosar. oh well.. if u guys know it, tell me.. its been bugging me LOL!

anyway, i should go sleep now. not much update today (wednesday) 'cept about my dream. hey guys, if you've noticed, i have a lot of weird dreams.. do clue me in if you can decipher any of my ever-so weird and deranged dreams.. i'd really like to know.

TO A CERTAIN MOTHERFUCKER

There has been much grief
A need for a substitute relief
A child born, a child died
All under a bomb-shattered sky

To understand it all, we cannot
Pain and suffering, it has brought
‘Why’ is all we can ask
All we get is their mask

How much more can they kill?
Has time stood still?
A limbless child, deprived of his future
All under a sky of vultures

Listen to their cries
Under that same shattered sky
Are you that naive and blind?
Not even a compassionate mind?

As you sleep at night
Pray with might
Your conscience will not sleep
Into your soul, it will creep

Remember the pain you’ve caused
Remember all your flaws
Children who now cannot see
Is all what they can be

I hope one day, you will know
All you've brought is sorrow
When it comes back to you
Don’t be shocked, you already knew

just checked my mail and got the following .gif file from my friend, su-ren. i think its really cute!

what the fuck's going on with the blog-related websites? my tag board cant be accessed, blogwise isnt responding and i cant access some of my links. like what the fuck is going on? its freaking pissing the crap out of me! @#!#@~#@!#@

The Dancing Lights Issue

so, moving on from freaky "ghostly" sick-ass prank pictures, i've discovered a fun way of toying with my camera. was with a friend, caroline and we were fooling around with the camera and its various modes. since it was night, i switched to the long shutter mode (to capture more light) and the results were moving lights. the coolest part about it was that the object in focus (us) were not affected. here are some examples:



picture 5 indicates the moon. we were testing to see if the same effect would work on it and it did. its like drawing in the sky. hope you guys like the pics and let me know what you think.

The Hoax Issue

hahaah! well guys, looks like my prank didnt work very well. for those who were wondering whether it was my finger or what nought, the answer is NO. my friend, xavie, played the "ghost" apparition in the photos. there's more. we were trying to create our own ghostly photographs and hell some of the pics turned out pretty freaky. see for yourself:



i do want to apologize to those who thought this was a really sick-ass prank. my utmost sincere apology. we were just bored out of our skulls. but pretty convincing, dont you think? some of my friends got really spooked. my cousin, eu jin a.k.a. hogs believed it and was serious about not entering my room again. LOL.. i know, i know.. its not something to kid about. :þ

The Haunting Issue

was playing around with my camera; testing out its features and ofcourse, experimenting with the effects etc. the following pictures came out. brace yourselves. the pictures were taken in my room with my Canon IXUSi.



anyone is welcomed to explain this. look closely at the pictures. notice the bottom left corner of the pictures. that black thingie wasnt present when the shots were taken. i tried taking the picture again in colour but that thing didnt show up:


i'm freaked out by just looking at the pics. *shudder* perhaps i should get my room cleansed.

The Bad Omen Dream Issue

today was pretty ok. had malaysian studies class so i went to college. i am on a 6-week break but since malaysian studies is an independent subject, the semester break doesnt apply to it. what a bitch. i still dont understand why we must take up that subject. pif.

again, i got a weird dream. like, whats up with all my dreams being weird, gross or horrific? i know this particular dream had nothing to do with the book i read. i can only remember my dream vaguely as everything as was all over the place. all i can recall is that my back molar tooth split in half. now, having dreams about your tooth breaking or being broken or losing it is a major ass bad omen. ask any local old folks and they'll tell you that. it basically means that someone is going to die; usually someone you know and/or close to you. the last time i dreamt my tooth breaking, my neighbour died like a coupla months later. my mom had a dream about her tooth breaking and my godsister's grandmother passed away. coicidence? i'm not one to determine it.

i woke up feeling crappy cos i dont know who exactly is going to die and neither do i want to wonder the possibilities of who that person might be. freaks me out. if anyone has any information or knows anything about this sorta omen, do let me know. i'd like some clarity. i am usually able to decipher dreams but its not easy to decipher your own dreams. you just gotta hear it from a different person. i also hear that, you can "predict" the person by knowing which tooth broke. in my dream, it was my top row, 3rd last molar. mine didnt just break,.. it split in two. yeah... freaky right? isnt freaky that i remember my dreams quite clearly?

so moving on from the tooth-breaking dream, i wanted to comment on the effeciancy of our DBKL (Dewan Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur) administration staff. 2 years ago (2002), i drove an old proton saga model to work. so one day, while visiting a client in sri hartamas, my car got towed away (yeah, parked the damn thing on an INVISIBLE yellow line..). subsequently, i'm supposed to pay an RM300 fine, which, i didnt. last year, we sold off that car. weird thing is, during the ownership transfer, there was no problem. usually, any outstanding summonses or compounds will cause the transfer to delay but that didnt happen. everything went smoothly. and just last saturday, i received a letter from them asking me to pay the fine. enclosed with the letter was a form which i was to fill up. now, my concern is this:

there is a section that said 'tandatangan pemunya berdaftar kenderaan'. so, do i fill it in with my particulars or do i have to look for the new owner of the car? now i'm supposed to go to their damn office which, is located in the freaking heart of mothers of all jams, jalan raja laut to submit this damn thing. i initially wanted to send them a bank draft to get it over and done with but i'm not quite sure of that part. freakazoids. *sigh*

yeah yeah.. i know its my fault. i'm just bitching for the sake of it. just wanted to point out that they're not very efficient. *grumble grumble*

haha! got this joke thru a friend, jo ann. thanks babe. its pretty old but funny nonetheless.

There were two nuns... One of them was known as Sister Mathematical (SM),and the other one was known as Sister Logical (SL). It is getting dark and they are still far away from the convent.

SM: Have you noticed that a man has been following us for the past thirty-eight and a half minutes? I wonder what he wants.
SL: It's logical. He wants to rape us.
SM: Oh, no! At this rate he will reach us in 15 minutes at the most?What can we do?
SL: The only logical thing to do of course is to walk faster.
SM: It's not working.
SL: Of course it's not working. The man did the only logical thing. He started to walk faster, too.
SM: So, what shall we do? At this rate he will reach us in one minute.
SL: The only logical thing we can do is split. You go that way and I'll go this way. He cannot follow us both.

So the man decided to follow Sister Logical. Sister Mathematical arrives at the convent and is worried about what has happened to Sister Logical. Then Sister Logical arrives.

SM: Sister Logical! Thank God you are here! Tell me what happened!
SL: The only logical thing happened. The man couldn't follow us both,so he followed me.
SM: Yes, yes! But what happened then?
SL: The only logical thing happened. I started to run as fast as I could and he started to run as fast as he could.
SM: And?
SL: The only logical thing happened. He reached me.
SM: Oh, dear! What did you do?
SL: The only logical thing to do. I lifted my dress up.
SM: Oh, Sister! What did the man do?
SL: The only logical thing to do. He pulled down his pants.
SM: Oh, no! What happened then?
SL: Isn't it logical, Sister?


A nun with her dress up can run faster than man with his pants down.
And for those of you who thought it would be dirty, say two Hail Marys!!

many thanks to all those who have tried the survey.. i'm glad that someone actually bothered to do my survey LOL! dont worry, no more surveys will come from me. i'll let it rest until i come up with new and tougher questions to crack your craniums muahahaha! i'll come back later to update my blog about my day. meanwhile, you can check out the lil strip below whilst you await my return:




cheerios!

The 'How Malaysian Are You?' (Pt II) Survey Answers

here are the suggested answers. again, correct me if i made a mistake. some questions may have more answers than what i suggest.

1. Give 5 variations for tea (teh) when ordering at a mamak.
teh ais, teh tarik, teh o ais limau, teh halia, teh o ais

2. When an appointment is at 8:30pm, what time will most Malaysians arrive?
about an hour later

3. What sauce / dip is famous in Malacca?
cincaluk (shrimp dip)

4. Why is chinese tea served at a chinese restaurant and/or bak kut teh shop?
to break down the oil compounds when digesting

5. Which culture did the habit of removing one's footwear before entering a house derive from?
the malay culture

6. Name 3 Indian festivals that are celebrated.
deepavali, thaipusam and ponggal

7. BONUS : What's Malaysia's current population rate (approximately)?
approximately 22 million

8. Where is Tanjung Jara located?
terengganu (i'm very surprised that very few know this)

9. At what festival do the chinese throw oranges into the sea?
chap goh mei

10. What snack is Kelantan known for?
keropok lekor and other various types of keropoks

11. Where was the former international airport situated and what was its NEW name?
subang jaya, Sultan Abdul Aziz Shah International Airport

12. Who's our current Agung and which state's Sultan was he?
HM. Seri Paduka Baginda Yang Di Pertuan Agung Sultan Salahuddin Abdul Aziz Shah, Sultan of Perlis

13. What does EON stand for?
Edaran Otomobil Nasional

14. Is Putrajaya a state?
yes

15. Malaysia is home to the world's biggest flower. What flower is that?
the rafflesia

16. What's our national flower?
the hibiscus (bunga raya)

17. Name 5 supernatural beings thats popular in our folklore.
pontianak, toyol, orang minyak, hantu langsuir and hantu galah

18. Name AT LEAST 5 local celebrities that you know of.
siti nurhaliza, erra fazira, awie, m. nasir and sarah raisudin

19. How tall is the KL Tower and the Petronas Twin Tower respectively?
kl tower = 421 meters high; petronas twin tower = 452 meters high

20. Tunku Abdul Rahman was known as Bapa Kemerdekaan (Father of Independence). What is Tun Dr Mahathir's?
father of modernization (bapa pemodenan)

score:
15 - 20 = hardcore malaysian culture researcher
10 - 14 = typical arriving-one-hour-after-agreed-time malaysian
0 - 9 = do malaysians live in trees?

The 'How Malaysian Are You?' (Pt II) Survey Issue

here's another one to make your grey matter work in over-drive mode. as usual, the answers will be posted either later today or tomorrow. remember, this is for good, clean fun so dont take it too seriously or get offended. this survey was never made to insult anyone in any way. have fun!

1. Give 5 variations for tea (teh) when ordering at a mamak.

2. When an appointment is at 8:30pm, what time will most Malaysians arrive?

3. What sauce / dip is famous in Malacca?

4. Why is chinese tea served at a chinese restaurant and/or bak kut teh shop?

5. Which culture did the habit of removing one's footwear before entering a house derive from?

6. Name 3 Indian festivals that are celebrated.

7. BONUS : What's Malaysia's current population rate (approximately)?

8. Where is Tanjung Jara located?

9. At what festival do the chinese throw oranges into the sea?

10. What snack is Kelantan known for?

11. Where was the former international airport situated and what was its NEW name?

12. Who's our current Agung and which state's Sultan was he?

13. What does EON stand for?

14. Is Putrajaya a state?

15. Malaysia is home to the world's biggest flower. What flower is that?

16. What's our national flower?

17. Name 5 supernatural beings thats popular in our folklore.

18. Name AT LEAST 5 local celebrities that you know of.

19. How tall is the KL Tower and the Petronas Twin Tower respectively?

20. Tunku Abdul Rahman was known as Bapa Kemerdekaan (Father of Independence). What is Tun Dr Mahathir's?

score:
15 - 20 = hardcore malaysian culture researcher
10 - 14 = typical arriving-one-hour-after-agreed-time malaysian
0 - 9 = do malaysians live in trees?

answers here.

'How Malaysian Are You?' Survey Answers

here are my suggested answers to my survey. do correct me if i made a mistake. many thanks to lainie for taking the time to do and post this survey in her blog. some question may have more answers than requested so their subjective. this quiz was made for fun, so have fun. its not meant to insult anyone :)

1. Give 3 examples of chinese foul curses
ma chau hai, diu lei, ma hai

2. Give 3 examples of malay foul curses
puki, puki mak engkau, sial punya budak

3. When an accident occurs, who are the ones that
are FIRST to arrive?
the call-men (tow trucks)

4. When was Malaysia OFFICALLY born? Hint: NOT 1957
16th September 1963

5. Name all 5 Prime Ministers
(i) Tunku Abdul Rahman
(ii) Tun Abdul Razak
(iii) Tun Hussein Onn Jaafar
(iv) Tun Dr Mahathir Mohammad
(v) Dato Seri Hj Abdullah Badawi

6. What is the word for the term 'drinking' in
chinese and tamil?
chinese : yam char, tamil : tani

7. What are KL roads known for besides the jam?
the constant digging

8. What do you learn to do when you drive in KL?
curse

9. The British trio, Honeyz re-made a song that
was formerly in Malay. What song was that?

• Cinta Di Akhir Garisan (Nora, Ning Baizura, Ziana Zain & Dessy)
• End of The Line (Honeyz)

10. At what competition did Ning Baizura win that
made her the star she is today?
Asia Bagus

11. Milo + Nescafe = Neslo

12. Besides limau, some ppl have their Coke with what?
condensed milk (coke susu)

13. How is roti tissue made to stand?
sugar

14. Whats the difference between nangka and cempedak?
nangka's flesh is firm and not moist as opposed to the cempedak's

15. Whose idea was it to produce Malaysia's first
national car?
Tun Dr Mahathir - The Proton Saga

16. When did Tun Mahathir resign as the 4th Prime
Minister of Malaysia?
October 2003

17. To your knowledge, is the word "lah" in the
dictionary?
yes

18. Name 2 caves in Sarawak.
gua mulu and gua niah

19. Who sang the theme song during the
Commonwealth Games that was held in Malaysia?
Ella - (Standing In The) Eyes of The World

20. What does KDRM stand for?
Kastam Di-Raja Malaysia

score:
15 - 20 = shouldn't you be working for tourism malaysia?
10 - 14 = you're the average malaysian
0 - 9 = foreigner

The 'How Malaysian Are You?' Survey Issue

Hi guys! i came up with my own version of a Malaysian general knowledge survey inspired by a buletin posted on Friendster. check it out:

1. Give 3 examples of chinese foul curses

2. Give 3 examples of malay foul curses

3. When an accident occurs, who are the ones that
are FIRST to arrive?

4. When was Malaysia OFFICALLY born? Hint: NOT 1957

5. Name all 5 Prime Ministers

6. What is the word for the term 'drinking' in
chinese and tamil?

7. What are KL roads known for besides the jam?

8. What do you learn to do when you drive in KL?

9. The British trio, Honeyz re-made a song that
was formerly in Malay. What song was that?

10. At what competition did Ning Baizura win that
made her the star she is today?

11. Milo + Nescafe = ?

12. Besides limau, some ppl have their Coke with what?

13. How is roti tissue made to stand?

14. Whats the difference between nangka and cempedak?

15. Whose idea was it to produce Malaysia's first
national car?

16. When did Tun Mahathir resign as the 4th Prime
Minister of Malaysia?

17. To your knowledge, is the word "lah" in the
dictionary?

18. Name 2 caves in Sarawak.

19. Who sang the theme song during the
Commonwealth Games that was held in Malaysia?

20. What does KDRM stand for?

i'll post the answers tomorrow.. hehe.. do try to answer yea

The Dinner & Malaysian Idol (Pt II) Issue

wow. a lot has happened last night. so many that i cant remember much. will try to remember as much as possible. lemme see, i cooked dinner for shai and myself. below are the dishes that i cooked.


1. lotus root soup (ling ngau thong)
2. japanese tofu with chicken and egg gravy
3. fried kangkung (water convolvulus) with garlic
4. papaya for desert

yup! i can cook. SURPRISE!! hahaahha! well, my baby found them to be great. ofcourse, we ate those with rice. i was pretty much pooped out from cooking and i was so wanting to lie down and snooze away. but hell it was worth it. it was for the love of my life anyway :P

later last night, my cousin dropped by to be so hai togeder-geder. before he left, we told ghost stories in my room and thanks to shai, my cousin got freaked out and was afraid to drive home alone HAHAHA! nevertheless, it was fun though tired.

enough about last night. today, my parents came home from malacca and everything in the house returned to normal. cigarette butts disposed, shai went home and i cleaned up the place. (i miss my baby! *sniff*). after everything was done, i read a book that i borrowed from shai. this book was written by tunku halim and it consists of 15 short horror stories. some stories were quite boring but most of them were enough to make your hair stand on end. the book is entitled Bloodhaze. so scary the stories were, i became all paranoid thinking that shadows maybe lurking outside my windows, or, weird noises emitting from unsuspecting places. *shudder*

aight, enuff of freaking myself out silly. moving on quickly to the next issue. malaysian idol's result show was aired earlier on at 10pm on 8TV and it was a TOTAL disappointment. first of all, this week's group was nothing compared to last week's and second, the contestants were suddenly so freaking arrogant. whats up with that? and the results.... the 2 guys i was hoping that would NEVER see the light of another day on malaysian idol were chosen to move on to the next level. total let down.

MALAYSIA : VOTE FOR TALENT NOT CHEESY "PRETTY" BOYS!

nevertheless, here are the 3 that were chosen to advance to the next level:


1. andrew
2. fadzli
3. victor

hopefully, next week's group wont be as a total disappointment as this week's. time to congest my lungs. *feeling annoyed*

tired.. tired.. ugh! *thud* my baby loves to kacau me

The Crazy Day Issue

today was a rather totally unproductive day. traffic was a total bitch. the only consolation for the earlier part of the day was that it rained and it was sooooooooo cooling to sleep in. too bad the jam was beyond my imagination. i had to take 3 detours just to get to saujana to pick xavie. apparently there was a 3 car pile up near the sunway toll. on top of that, my mom rushed me to get my lunch over and done a.s.a.p. cos they needed the car to go to malacca. so more stress was added. on top of that, my cousin wanted to go for lunch and he had no car and i couldnt pick him up as i was rushing for time (sorry yar!). finally, picked up xavie and headed to our regular spot for lunch. spent about an hour or so there doing our usual stuff and then we headed back to my place since my parents needed the car. turns out, they didnt. they were going to take another car. so yeah, rush me to kingdom come, why not?

after my parents left, xavie and i were up with our antics once again. you simply CANNOT imagine the amount of stupidity that was running thru the house. put xavie and i with a camera, sit back and let the clown show begin. it was good clean fun, mind you. we took nearly 200 pictures within an hour or so. so yeah, you can imagine the incessant clicking sound of the camera (digital). on top of that, we were making 101 stupid faces that you simply just cannot imagine. this is what happens when boredom sinks in. our little bodies seek to fight it HAHAHAHAHAHA! we even took 3 hilarious videos and have tried every conceivable poses. some pics turned out GREAT and some turned out just plain ugly. nevertheless, we had so much fun (too much, i think). by the end of the day, we were both sooo tired to do anything else. we ended up watching national geographic while waiting for dinner to be ready.

as for the pictures, i've transfered them into my pc but due to the huge amount of pictures, i wont be able to post them all at once so, i've included a snapshot column in my sidebar so you guys can see what sorta pics we took. still, its at my discretion haha!

i'm waiting for my baby to come over so we can go for supper. my stomach isnt too well today; not too sure why. oh well,.. maybe i'm just hungry.

The Bastard Reply Issue

i found something hilarious. its a reply from a bastard in the "ask a bastard" column of insultmonger. its very long and hope u have the time to read it. its pretty funny! have fun!

Bastard-Hater, sub-literate babbling blockhead:

Hi, Bastard-Hater. Isn't lunacy a grand thing? I know that you're busy rubbing some Ben Gay on your swollen lactating manboobs after you've finished your daily colonic, but I just wanted to take a moment to say hello and good-bye and to wish that pile of maggot infested shit that constitutes your being a pleasant journey along the superhighway. Now, I won't say it's been fun knowing you because obviously no-one would believe it. In truth, it's just another uninspiring game of Whack-A-'Tard. But, to you, it's more than that, isn't it? As you sit there tied to a radiator in your roach-infested, meth-producing, piss-stained, government-assisted housing project with your mouth full of cum drained from a dead bull's immense testicles purchased from your local abattoir, wishing that a few ladies would join together and jack you off until you scream like a spoiled little school girl for them to stop, you dream above all that Bastard would recognize your greatness and accept you into the fold for fear of your mighty wrath. Right? Sure, that's right. But that just isn't going to happen: no way; no how. Just like those ladies aren't going to come and jack you off. Even Uncle "tug the snake till he spits" Gerry doesn't do that to you anymore - not since you sprouted hair on your balls. Besides, you took too much pleasure in fingering his ass and licking his shit off your finger like it was McRib ketch-up sauce and you hadn't eaten for a week. Now, alas, your sexual experience consists of dressing your Alsatian puppy in little leather hot pants with a patch cut in the rear for quick access - like those filthy San Francisco faggots wear during Mardi Gras week - and smearing Pedigree Chum on your genitalia so he'll lick it off. What the hell is WRONG with you anyway? Listen, it's bad enough that you blew your allowance on 'The Terminator' screensaver, but to call yourself a "flamer" makes my ass itch violently! You, Dullard, are as witless as Australians; boring as the English; ball-sack challenged as the French, and unimportant as the Canadians. Were the option available to you, I would suggest you delete all of the truly pitiful cries for help you posted in my inbox, and go back to flaming kids and adult simpletons on alt.fans-of-harry-potter. You should seek professional help, and having me dress you up to look like a metaphorical Barbie Doll is not "help". Why you submit yourself to such humiliation is beyond the grasp of all except fully-qualified mental health workers, but I'll warrant it relates to what your uncle did to you. No-one likes you here, there, or anywhere. Right? When your best friend is a dirty toilet brush which you stuck two cardboard eyes on (and you suspect he doesn't even like you), then it's time to call it a day, my repugnant, tutu-wearing, self-abusing, fudgepacking friend. Maybe it's not your fault; not enough love from your mom - God help her $2 ass. But listen you pastry-skinned, delicate, little ass-fairy, late at night after mommy and this week's boyfriend finally pass-out from the barrel of beer and ass-sex in the back of the double-wide, do NOT fire up the new Made-In-Guatemala computer you got for Christmas and sit up all night wearing your favorite black panties posting anymore of your weak, Disney-rated, unoriginal crap thinking it is the product of a flaming legend. It isn't! Yes, it would be nice if you had any balls since they will never be used for anything else, but instead you feed your rich pink fantasy life here on the web and with a masterful command of two-syllable words and rehashed material and pretend to be some bizarre version of an Evil Powder Puff Girl. Go look at porn or try "ImAlotMoreSensitiveThanOtherBoys.com" or try "CuteBoysBeatMeUpButNotOffEveryDay.com" you effeminate, self-loathing ass-pirate waste of skin! My dear delusional, bacteria-infested friend, it seems that against all laws of nature, logic and, indeed, justice you have found acceptance in the rancid shithouse we call Usenet along with all the other mentally challenged lemur-molesting depraved son's of bitches the good lord saw fit to expunge through his back passage. May I, at the risk of offending you, suggest that although this little "I Want To Be A Real Flamer In Usenet" project of yours is keeping you off the streets and out of decent folks sight for a few hours of your sister-beating, llama-sodomizing, poodle-buggering deranged existence, suggest that you hand yourself over to the government for medical experiments, extermination, or so they can lock you in a steel cage with your hands bound with some violently horny enraged gorillas. Failing these actions, you lead me to point out the fact that although you are probably home to various germs as yet unknown to human science, every breath you take is an outrageous waste of precious oxygen. Do the decent thing and donate your carcass to science like a good man. Now, technically I do not know how to address you? You could be male or female. I'm leaning more towards none of the above; probably a rare combination of alien and mutated whale sperm that was left in a Petri dish for way to long. What sparked things to grow in the Petri dish? I'm putting my money on Colt 45, the very liquid that you were nursed on right after you hatched. Anyway, listen Bitch, and I call you that because I feel we are friends now and I can use your first name, I have pimples on my ass that are more interesting than you. My bowel movements are more creative than your best efforts of impotent, pre-pubescent cries for help. I can't convey my disgust with words alone so I'll spit on this reply. No hard feelings, huh? Have a nice... well, just go fuck yourself. No; wait - you are already doing that, you freak.

I hope this helps,

Bastard

Why Do Gays Bitch?

isnt that an age old question? after having a long conversation with kev, he inspired me to write this entry. gays are not spared from the vile bitching of their fellow brethrens. some think that all gays are alike. for those who think that, think again. NOT all gays bitch or enjoy bitching about others. thats the one reason why i left the scene. i guess i didnt fit well into their bitching activities and sometimes, these sorta things can get out of hand.

i've been a victim to their constant bitching and potlitics. in a nutshell, the gay community consists of the following:

1. bitching
2. politics
3. competition

BITCHING

in my opinion, i think that the gay community has crafted this habit into an art. one must be cautious when bitching about others and, some do it extemely well while others do not. i guess women too, have adopted this art and is practised amongst their female clan. this may be one of the reasons why people may not like the gay community. is this a habit? is this a culture? as far as i am concerned, it is a way of protecting their sorry ass low self esteems by putting another person down. i know a particular group of gay people who gather solely for the purpose of "discussion". here, they share gossips and the buletin utama of the latest fuck-arounds. they can be found in groups of 5 or more. they can sit in a bar / club and talk about a random guy that happens to be wearing something un-suave or un-pink and go on for hours. this can be observed by their eye movements and lip movements and sometimes the not-so nonchalant incessant pointing. i find it to be so fucking rude. why cant they follow the general rule : if you have nothing nice to say, shut your hole (either end). try separating them and pairing them up with a total stranger and you'll notice that they wont bitch. why? simple. they'd be so self conscious and wouldnt want to be bitched about. kinda like it takes one to know one. dont you find this sad? they can dish it out but cant take it in. here's something : mind your own fucking business.

POLITICS

another trait of the gay community. some times, the politic can get really bad as if they were going to run the country. like, hello? why create more politics when the world has already enough of it? here's an advice: too many chefs spoil the broth. wanna be a politician? be one of the election candidates. maybe the government would like your pink feathered boa flare in politics in the cabinet.

COMPETITION

i really do not know why gays must compete. why is there a need to compete? will there be a prize waiting for the person who has fucked the most guys? or maybe the guy that has given the most blowjobs? these are cheap ways of boosting one's self esteem. just be yourself and dont compete with others. there are plenty of guys out there for everyone. keep competing and you'd be recycling the men out there. ewww.

these are the reasons why i left the gay scene. too much hassle and stress. in the end, you get burned for doing absolutely nothing. a newbie can step into liquid without knowing a single person. with the incredible and noble help of the gossipers, this person would be the next popular thing to have ever grace the planet.

i initially typed a lot of stuff just now and my FUCKED UP PC HAS TO CREATE PROBLEMS AND NOW I HAVE TO RE-TYPE EVERYTHING!!!!! ma chau hai! the whole fucking screen suddenly went blank! so i had to restart this stupid damn sorry excuse for a "high-tech" machine!!

as it is, i couldnt go back to sleep cos i'm dreaming weird dreams again. this time its about murders, ghosts and haunted places. i wont go into details cos the scenes were very inconsistent and i wouldnt know where to begin. nevertheless, it was scary enough to make me not go back to sleep. weird.

lets see.. what have i got planned for today? my baby's picking me up at 12:30pm so we can go for lunch at cyberview lodge. he wants to have the peking duck at the chinese restaurant (xing zhu). apparently, its really good. maybe you guys can check it out some time. i love CVL cos the rooms are awesome! very comfy and romantic. they're like little chalets. my baby and i got the room with the king-sized bed when we last went there. yeah it was during the gatecrasher rave in sepang so we stayed there.

well, i better get ready! will come back and update the blog.. which reminds me, i have to take charmaine's dog out for a walk later in the evening. feeling busy.

The Stinko Stinkers Issue

just recovered from a massive headache attack. got back from the movie (shrek 2) and watched some tv. the movie was good. funny and all. who would've thought a fairy god mother would be evil. everything was going great. had a heavy lunch at the food court. had the yong tau foo (YUM!) and then headed to the cinema. sat there for a bit and people started to come in. quite surprised that shrek 2 is still receiving a lot of response, now that the hype is over. the crappy part was, we were surrounded by people with really bad body odour. shai and i were like nauseated. so we moved to a vacant, different row. then, his seat wasnt properly aligned. so we had to change seats again. by this time, my headache began to build up. lasted all the way home.

why cant people pay more attention to their body odour / hygiene? if you eat too much food containing various spices, put on some damn deodorant y'know? dont go around waving your armpits thinking its all pine fresh. sheesh! for crying out loud, what are all those rexona ads for? a little work to ensure you're fresh smelling doesnt take much work. just tweak ur wrists a bit. i'm not trying to insult or offend people who has this as a chronic problem. my concern is that, there is something you can do about it. if you still find putting on deodorant such a hassle, cut down on spicy food.

moving on from the odour issue, i watched CSI and it was da bomb. is there a case that they can never figure out? i wished we had such cool forensics here in malaysia. we could really use these sorta people. i was trying to imagine that we had a local tv series like that. Siasatan Lokasi Jenayah hahahaa! SLJ : Kuala Lumpur. HAHAHAHAHAHHA! they'd probably get jamaluddin hassan (the guy from roda impian) to gil grissom. sofea jane or amy mastura could play the part of sara sidle.

jamal : apakah pendapat anda mengenai kes ini?
sofea / amy : saya rasa kami patut melaporkan ini kepada pendakwaraya.
jamal : ya, saya setuju. tapi, kes ini sungguh rumit. mana saya tahu nak
mengendalikannya?
sofea / amy : ala, kita tanya director kita la.

if you have other ideas of which malaysian artist should play the roles in the cast of CSI, let me know. for all you know, someone is already making it hahaha!

hungry! hungry! *growl*

The Weird Dream Issue

*yawn*

aaaahhh just woke up! had a weird dream again.. dreamt about a woman who was dying of cancer. in my dream, the cancer had spread thru out her entire body and she was just waiting for death to take her. this woman had a criminal charge and i was looking at her thru a tv set. her eyes were half closed and she was biting her lips constantly. her lips had marks of bitten off dry skin. there was a narrator talking about the woman. this woman apparently refused cancer treatment. all i saw was, the woman was lying on a bed, naked. her breasts were deformed - most likely due to the cancer. she had black shoulder-length hair. face was peeling.

the narrator went on to explain about this woman. how she refused treatment and that she agreed to donate her body for scientific research. the woman allowed the cancer to eat thru her body. then, after suffering for one whole year, this woman finally gave in to cancer and died. all this while, the woman was being filmed and i'm watching her thru the screen. right before she died, she waved goodbye to the camera. her eyes were closed. slowly, she stopped breathing and moving altogether.

the next and final part of the dream was so national geographic-ish. i saw a doctor holding a huge plastic bag with something in it. turns out, it was the body of the cancer patient. her body was chopped up into different parts and no skin was left on her. just the flesh and fats here and there. looks like chicken meat LOL. the doctor then takes a piece out of the plastic bag. it was the head and spinal cord. the doctor was explaining something about how the cranium had swelled due to the cancer.

i was so mortified and grossed out that i woke up. i'm still wondering what that dream meant and why do i dreams such morbid dreams. sigh. i've been having morbid dreams for a pretty long time now.

i'm just gonna go take a shower and wait for my baby to come pick me up. we're gonna go for lunch and watch shrek 2! LIKE FINALLY! been wanting to watch that damn movie for so long! i cant believe i watched spiderman 2 (which was a fantastic movie) before shrek 2. so lame.

*droopy eyes*

feeling sleepy. for the record, charmaine isnt my girlfriend. i'm just really, really close to her and her family. kinda like a brother and i take good care of her and my other friends. since she's overseas, her parents will be in need of some help and i do try to help out if needed. charmaine has 2 other older sisters. eldest one is married, pregnant and working and the other one is busy with work so basically they have more important commitments. as for me, i'm on a 6-week break so i might as well contribute something to mankind HAHA!

*eyes closing*

my baby dowan to layan me :(

charmaine's gone off to australia. sent her off at KLIA last night.. feeling a bit down now that she's left. missing her already. babe, you be good over there ok? i'll be taking care of her dog whenever her parents are not around. oh wait, i still have to take the dog out for walks haha!

had a pretty early morning today. woke up at 10am and went for breakfast with xavie at our regular pork mee shop (i think we're addicted to it). sat at the place for like 2 hours or so.. we can really yam char and talk.. well, it wasnt all crap.. talked about how life is changing for everyone of us and how we've grown up.. u know.. reminiscing about how we were when we were younger and the difference between now and then.. and ofcourse, the bitching session.. well,. there's more to just talk, right? hehe.. oh, i was supposed to go for my stupid malaysian studies class but i hecked it since it was only for an hour. after much talk and approximately 10 cigarettes, we adjourned to charmaine's home to see her parents and layan her dog. took her (the dog, mind you) out for a walk, even. also, collected items that were left during the barbecue.

came back to my place and had a blast going thru insultmonger. xavie even sent an enquiry under the "ask a bastard" column which was hilarious! we hope to get a reply from him haahaha! after being a bunch of bodohs at the computer, we headed down to another regular hang out / yam char spot for tea / late lunch. by that time, we were just so tired haha! and after that, i'm now back home writing this entry. xavie's gone to fetch her mom from work and as for me, i'm gonna take a snooze after posting this entry.

xavie's crazy.

I MISSED MALAYSIAN IDOL LAST NIGHT!!!!! argh! sigh.. all i know is that 2 ppl i voted for didnt get thru :(

dina, zamil and vick got thru. will have to see what happens this week.

aah! its been a long day today and i'm pretty pooped out. last night had a barbecue farewell party for charmaine. she's flying off today to adelaide. feeling emotional.

didnt submit an entry last night as i was too tired from barbecuing and i smelled like blood and oil. fingers were stained from all the lamb, beef and chicken blood hehe. sounds gross eh? hair and face were greasy. i bet an egg could've been cooked on my face. had so much trouble with the barbecuing. my toes and hands were pretty much half cooked from all the hot oil that splattered. it was a fun night nevertheless. met a lot friends and made new ones too.

in another 2 hours or so, i'll be going off to KLIA to send charmaine off. it'll be an emotional good-bye most definitely. i've had so much history with this woman. though she's only going to be gone for a year, the first time will still be tough. today, we both went to our favourite usual breakfast / brunch coffee shop to have pan mee for one last time. just the two of us. though it was only a short while, it was meaningful.

i guess we all grow up eventually and changes are bound to happen. its just the matter of how we deal with these changes and make the best out of it. i have a belief that life or God, if you will, has an automated "repair" mechanism to help individuals get their lives back on track when all else fails. meaning, things will work themselves out eventually. again, its how we deal with the outcome.

busy busy busy busy day today

group shot @ heineken's green room festival

back row (L to R) : kartini, charmaine, raffaella, joshua, jill and sky
bottom row (L to R) : aaron, xavie and shai

more pics here.

aight guys. yahoo stopped being a bitch. photos of the green room festival have been uploaded. click the photo album under the link section. more will be uploaded soon!

its a lovely sunday afternoon and i just woke up haha! my body's aching from all the hard partying i did last night at the green room festival AND FUCKING HELL IT ROCKED!!!!!!!!!! sounds of minus 8, faze action, groovejam and the reel people are simply begging the audience to stand up and shake that boot-ay!

at the very beginning, i was still sitting down and taking LOADS of pics. then came faze action and the adrenalin started pumping (on top of that, beer was in my system too) and starting grrooooving! oh by the way, you can check out the pics in my photo album later. i cant seem to upload the pics now. yahoo's being a bitch.

the group i liked best was GROOVEJAM!!!! (too bad i cant find the link to this one). the singer was hot and she knew what the crowd wanted and she delivered! one hot chica! we all know now she wore red panties last night HAHA! i was dancing so much my legs feel wobbly now. and my voice is now kinda husky thanks to all the screaming last night.

met loads of lovely, lovely people last night. met kev, hani, veronica, adam, farah, xavie, kart, raffaella, charmaine, jill, aaron, joshua (i made this guy come in LOL!) and a new friend i made, sky. ofcourse, there were MORE of them but given my state of mind right now, i cant recall LOL. everything ended at exactly 12:00am (11:59:57) ;). after it ended, my baby and i had supper at bangsar lotus. man i was so hungry! again, met other friends there. after supper, we headed for home. the minute i touched my bed, i knocked out.

heineken green room festival is certainly a memorable one. they should have more of these sorta outdoor parties more often. oh yeah, it was held at the bukit kiara equestrian club so there were horse shit along the way haha! but its aight. thank god i didnt step in one of those.

i've inserted a tag board at the bottom right of the sidebar (after links). feel free to post messages :)

just got back from brunch. met up with jay jay, nadya, edward and charmaine. had a bit of an emo session as she's going to fly off to australia for studies this coming monday, 19th july 2004. i've been feeling down lately and i guess its due to her leaving. sigh...

on a different issue, i'm in somewhat of a dilemma. i'm on a 6-week semester break and not quite sure what to do. i was thinking of working in my dad's firm (he's a lawyer) to get some experience. then again, i'm not very close to my dad and he leaves home at 4am to go to work. so, if i were to join him, i'd be interferring with his routine and thus, inconveniencing him. another option, however, is to work with charmaine's sister who, is also a lawyer. so basically, i cant seem to decide as to what i should do. working with my dad is kinda good cos i'll be taking over the firm after graduating. my dad's a conveyancing lawyer and charmaine's sister is a litigation lawyer. hmm.. decisions, decisions, decisions.

for the time being, i shall just focus on getting to green room haha! as you can see, my priorities are not well organized HAHA! well, thats me i guess. going thru some emotional phase and still planning out what i should do during this break.

i like having discussions about law with people and for those who are reading, practising or have an interest in the subject, feel free to discuss them with me. i personally find it mind-stimulating. do i sound like some nerded out geek?

its a beautiful saturday morning and i just woke up from slumber land.. sun's not too bright and the weather's cooool. aaaahhhh i love this sorta mornings! called my baby and he's still sound asleep. he's freaking cute when he's asleep :)). called up some other friends to see if they could accompany me for breakfast / brunch and everyone's doing something. sigh. finally got jay jay to have brunch with me. and that dude's still asleep. so we decided to go eat at 12:30pm so this leaves me much time to update my blog.

many thanks to wayne for linking me to his blog. you rock, dude and cute comics! draw more! your drawings certainly make my day more colourful haha!

i'm gonna take today easy as i'm gonna go for GREEN ROOM!!!! so i'll need the energy to have fun tonight hahaha! for those who need more info on it, click the link or check my previous posts.

aight, am gonna go take a shower now and i'll be off for a hearty breakfast + lunch = brunch hehehe.

i find this pretty interesting:

Why can't they have gay people in the military? Personally, I think they are just afraid of a thousand gay guys with M16s going, "Who'd you call a faggot?"
- John Stewart

The Malaysian Idol (Pt I) Issue



today, the first 11 contestants from the first group strutted their stuff to millions of malaysian viewers with the hope of making their dream come true by being the first malaysian idol and subsequently take part in world idol (hopefully). i was kinda disappointed with the setting. the "stage" was like ultra small. if i were to dance on it, there wouldnt be any space left for others lol. the songs were accompanied by ONE piece of musical instrument (the piano) and thats it. no live studio audience. no audience applause. the only applause that was heard was from the other contestants. the judges were "stoned" aka kaku maxed out. roslan was weird. he's suddenly mr polite and courteous. fauziah latiff criticized more on the contestants' fashion sense whilst wearing that sorry excuse for a head scarf. paul moss was okay, just that he kept beating around the bush and i just feel that there's something missing and not quite right.

least to say, the judges were not being how they were during the auditions. paul moss was okay, overall.

as for the contestants, they were good. i liked vick, dina, shima and nikki in particular. personally, they were outstanding. vick's performance wasnt the best today as opposed to the one he did during the auditions for the top 33. guess he chose the wrong song. dina blew me away! she did her rendition of misha omar's bunga bunga cinta and it was breath-taking! though she faltered here and there, she managed to pull it off leaving me mesmerized. shima's vocals are steady and well controlled. much like kelly clarkson's. she did her version of clarkson's "The Trouble With Love Is". nikki has the gift of hitting mariah's high notes. this woman definitely gets my vote seeing that i'm an avid fan of Mariah Carey.

so far, malaysian idol has been pretty good and hope it gets better.

ever gotten so angry that you've used up every conceivable swear word and wished you had more to say? well, now you can with this AMAZING and fucking hilarious swearsaurus! for the benefit of non-malaysians, you now can understand and use these words at your convenience.. for the average malaysian, knock yourself out with the swears available!! seriously, guys, its hilarious! check it out. man, i think this must bemy best entry ever haha!

in case anyone is wondering, i'm on friendster too. feel free to add me in at alexisyap@hotmail.com. erm.. and about updating myself, guess i'll do it tomorrow when i wake up LOL.. talk about procrastinating. till then, nitez!

today is the day i re-started blogging and i've been staring into my screen for the entire day. new templates are out and i had the joy of browsing thru them and going thru tonnes of previewing to suit my taste. least to say, my vision is a bit fuzzy right now. almost nauseous you might say. tummy feeling a bit woozy and i've been cooped up at home doing this damn thing and my poor baby had to speak to me when i'm in a distracted state LOL!

took me an entire day to figure out the coding and what nots to align certain portions of my blog.

i'm not very good at this, mind you :)

at this moment, i'm waiting for my baby to come get me so i can claim my free tickets to green room this saturday (WHEEEEE!!).. dunhill has been kind to me and i'm thankful i smoke the brand muahahahahahaha!

apart from staring and figuring out the damn codes, i did a bit of browsing thru some of the blogs available (namely kev's blogs) and i manage to get the hang of what i should write on mine hahah~! took me this long to figure out. so i'm slow in learning this sorta crap so sue me :P

i was pretty impressed with the number of blogs here and i definitely cant read all of them so i basically skim thru most of them to get to the juicy parts *grin*

after i get back from collecting the tickets later, i might really re-blog and fill up the 9 months gap of not blogging. watch this space :)

Bukit Kiara Equestrian Club
17th July 2004 (Saturday)
6pm onwards
RM50 + 1 drink

HOW TO GET THERE:



COME JOIN THE PARTY!

Click here for more info and program line-up.

BITTER

I don’t know what else I should do
I’m being pushed as far as I can see
What we had between me and you
Are all gone and thrown to the sea
I’ve not betrayed and never have I
Such words you used impaled through me
Do you really want to see me die?
I’ll ensure your death first, and then do me

The story of our lives took a drastic turn
Hasn’t been the same ever since
Your pride and ego I shall burn
Burn by the flames, inch by inch
No longer it is a ride for all of us
Who changed it I ask of you
No more, no more will I hurt
I want to see you suffer this through

The sun now burns through my flesh
Bit by bit it eats into my skin
None of us can even start afresh
Did you really badly wanted to win?
The cold nights now send shivering fangs
Gritting my teeth as I try to pull through
What you said and did filled me angst
How did you want me to construe?

What happened between us is now an obstacle
Been figuring out a way to go ‘round it
What I think we need is a miracle
To help us up onto our feet
So tired of all this mess you’ve caused
What can more of this madness do?
The spirit within me now roars
For an answer to help me and you

BACK FROM THE DEAD!!!

hi guys!! well, it has been a freaking long time since i last updated my blog!! well, today's 15th of JULY 2004 and it has been 9 months since i last posted my blog. to update everyone on whats been going on, i'm now studying in KDU in damansara reading law.. yeah yeah... most of you might be thinking "wah! abel doing law ar? sure or not?".. well its true.. currently in my intermediate level (1st year) and still scraping through.. today, i'm officially on my semester break for approximately 6 weeks or so..

for the past 9 months, a lot has happened - both sweet and bitter.. bitter or sweet the experiences may be, my friends never failed to be there for me and for that, it has been engraved in my heart and i'm forever grateful.. guys (you know who you are :p), i want you to know that, without you, i wouldnt have been able to make it..

new pics have been added into my yahoo photo album.. feel free to look at them.. i'll DO my level best to keep updating my blog and hopefully i'll be more disciplined and diligent this time.. luckily blogspot didnt delete my account off lol! cheerios!